End of 2012 & A Sad Goodbye to my Best Friend

Tonight at midnight marks a new year & new beginnings. My son will be 1 years old in April, I graduate in April too. 2013 I will start my new career as a medical assistant and I am very excited.

Today I wanted to write about someone who meant a lot to me, and I feel that to this day he is still with me in spirit. Who is he? His name was Sam. Sam was my very first Chihuahua whom I adopted in 2005. He & I had a bond that no one could ever break. Sam, he had epilepsy and was on medication(s) to control his seizures. Just a few days short of his 10th birthday, (Sept 9th 2012), on August 31st, 2012, he passed away. I miss him dearly. I love Sam to pieces & I know that he will always be with me, and will meet me in heaven one day. He was such a good family member. Yes, he was a dog, but to me he was my furry son. I am glad I was able to get some pictures with him and my son Daniel together.

I Love You Samuel Adams. RIP.

Goodbye 2012, Hello 2013

As 2012 is ending and a new year is about to begin in less than 2 days, I have been thinking about what all transpired in my life this year. In April, my son was born. What a true blessing he is from God. After my divorce in 2011, I truly thought I would never have a family of my own. Low and behold, I got pregnant in July 2011 and had him April 2012. I truly do not know how some (not all) people can say God is against XYZ. If God thought divorce was wrong and that being an unwed mother was wrong, then tell me how after 6 years of marriage and trying to conceive, how come I never got pregnant and then I ended up pregnant with my son who is not his? Just a little question to think about.

Every month has been a blessing. Just one more day seeing my beautiful, amazing son learn and grow. His laugh, his smile, just lights up a room. I am in so much trouble when he is into girls when he is 40! All seriousness, Daniel is my little blessing. He is so amazing. I am fortunate enough to have amazing family & a close few friends who never have given up on me, and have always been at my side through rough times and the amazing times.

Another aspect of my life that has changed was the job. Unfortunately, after 9 years of service with my boss, I had to leave. I will not go into what really happened, but it made me sad to have to make that decision. I should point out I only talk to a couple of previous co-workers to this day, no one else talks to me anymore from there. I am glad I got out of the car business though. I decided after quite a few attempts at finding a new job, to go back to school. I started in July for Medical Assisting, and now I have less than 1.5 classes left until externship, then come April, along with my son's 1st birthday, I graduate.

Lastly, to sum up 2012, I started going to church last week. Something inside of me was telling me to go. I have been craving, yes craving to go. I feel something wonderful in church. A sanctuary if you will. A place to gather my thoughts, learn scripture/lessons, strengthen my Faith in God, and remind myself that I need to be more grounded and not fly off the handle at petty things so much anymore.

What is coming for me in 2013? Only good things. I am looking forward to celebrating my son's 1 year birthday. I graduate from college for Medical Assisting and hopefully, I will be hired full time at the health care facility. I definitely want to continue to go to church and even maybe getting baptized for the first time in my life. 2013 is going to be an even better year!!!!

Merry Christmas 2012

I know I have said it time & time again, but I have been truly blessed! Today was my son's first Christmas and boy was he super spoiled! I hope I can spoil him every year that I am alive! I just started going to church. I have gone a couple times a couple years back with my ex husband, but stopped going all together. Here lately, something inside of me has been wanting to go to a church, to really commit to going every Sunday service (as long as I don't have to work & my parents are able to watch my son). I enjoy it & I feel 100% better now that I am involved in a church finally. My family is spiritual, just not church goers. I hope that I can stick with going every Sunday!

12-21-12 End of the world??

I never buy into the hype that people create, like today being the end of the world. I do understand very clearly that no one will know when the end of the world really is. Only God knows. I am not scared to die, but I do pray every day to let me see my son grow up before I pass on to the other side. I know from experience via dreams and the feeling of someone or a certain smell from a loved one who is passed, that you can connect to the other side. I believe everyone has some type of connection to the other world, but most do not embrace it. I embrace connecting to the other side. By doing that, I learn a lot and just being able to connect with passed loved ones is amazing.

So, as you are reading this, no one has died and the world has not ended.

8 Months of Bliss

Monday December 10th my son turned 8 months old. I can not believe how fast he is growing! In 4 short months he will be 1 year old. I love being a mother to an amazing son. He is so much fun. Daniel crawls really fast, he plays, laughs, smiles. He is such a joy in my life! I love my baby boy always & forever.

Why?

Today, 20 children & 6 adults were murdered in Newtown, CT. What makes a person kill another person, let alone a child???? The other day there was a shooting at a mall in Oregon killing 2 people. What is going on in this world anymore? You can't go to the movies, shopping or even school any more without worrying that someone may snap and commit murder. Since I had my son, I don't go out much these days. I am afraid anymore and I do not want anything bad happening to my precious son. I am afraid for my son's life and he is only 8 months old. I am thinking about sending him to school in a few years but hesitate to send him because of crazy people in this world. I do not want to shelter him, but I want to protect him. I would give my life for his and I hope he never has to encounter any tragedies. It seems like every time I turn on the television, I see news of murder or like today a tragedy.

My heart and prayers go out to those affected in Newtown, CT. God bless.